Considerations Regarding My Episodes
Of Total Misunderstanding

Here are some thoughts & considerations underlying a general/least-case hermeneutic that underlie my periods of psychosis/total-mis-understanding/Missverstehen.

By retrospection, I have determined that my periods of delusion are marked by 'loud' (read "inserted") thought, which are 'too beautiful' (read "pleasant") not to be true.
Of course this is pathognomonic for schizophrenia, but that is a non-hermeneutic consideration.

The delusions generally come after physiological insult (in the case of the decompensation of 2009 with me, after fasting and enduring a winter without anti-psychotic medication or heat or electricity.) A 'spiraling effect' can be observed-- the condition of error grows progressively worse.

Re-medication-- a purely physiological consideration is essential for restoration of equilibrium -- with the general awareness that it cannot be that I am the only one who sees correctly while all the world besides me is incorrect.

The aesthetic aspect of pleasure differentiates from the formal aesthetic that a scientist uses as a criterion of beauty is said to apply. Even here I need to beware any notion that aesthetic appeal of any kind sustains a claim of validity.

I become 'immersed' in the beautiful(in the pleasure sense) and then progressively eliminate any other mode of reality testing.

I do not think that any n=1 gambit for detecting psychosis is possible. I shall always need to be told when-I-go-crazy.

--Vernon Lynn Stephens